Turning Twenteen9:21 AM
I'm upset at the same time thankful for all the things, the people, the events, that made me what I am today. But I don't think I'm ready to be 20. Like, this is the time where I'll be faced with new responsibilities, priorities and goals in life. And looking back I don't think I've been responsible enough.
I almost cried watching RPG Metanoia last night. Like that movie deliberately made me reminisce my childhood life. Now I started asking myself what I've accomplished the past 20 years of living in this dearly planet of ours? What have I contributed to the world? Who am I? LOL. Baliw lungs!!! HAHAHA!
I could say that this is the most depressing birthday ever. Like before, I would count the days until my birthday and feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world. You know those times in your life when you just needed to worry about if you have a birthday cake or not? And this time around, Oh my God! I'll be twenty (Thank you though) but the thought of being Twenty is haunting me emotionally!
I know I couldn't contemplate much about these things in my head right now because while writing this - time passes by. Minutes, seconds, milliseconds I'll be 20 and I know people would tease me about how old I have become. Fine I'm twenty! As if I could do anything. But on the brighter side, it's good to know most of my friends are older than me. Meaning, I'm ONLY TWENTEEN and. . .